Weigh In

Starting weight: 183.8

Goal weight: 163.8

Last months weight: 182.4

Current weight: 192.6

Current +/-: +10.2

Total +/-: +8.8

BMI: 28.4

Body fat %: 28.9%

Measurements- starting 

Bust: 40"

Waist: 35.5"

Hips: 44.5"

L thigh: 25.75"

L arm: 12.5"

Measurements- current 

Bust: 41 (+1)

Waist: 37 (+1.5)

Hips: 45.5 (+1)

L thigh: 26.75 (+1)

L arm: 12.75 (+0.25)

I'm not proud of what happened this past month, and I'm not going to make excuses.

MyFitnessPal and have started the day with a healthy breakfast and lunch. I am going to focus on my self control and not mindlessly snack when I get bored. It's an ongoing battle for me and I can only take it one day at a time (at least, that's the only option I know of).

I wish that I could be a success story. That I could set my mind to doing this and actually follow through. I am so tired of starting over to only make it a day or two before I fall off course.

But, I'm not going to get anywhere by wishing. I have to get to my goal by doing. Doing the tracking, the better choices, the workouts, the positive thoughts, the self kindness. I can't change this past month. I can't make myself go back and make better choices or track the foods that I ate. I can, however, look forward. I can see that I'm making a change now. Whether it sticks this time or not is not up for me to worry about. I just have to do my best now and see where it takes me.

I can look at the positive points and see that even though I do keep re-starting, I am re-starting. I'm not giving up completely. One of these times it will happen for me. I just have to be ready for it..